Monday, February 25, 2002
Aww Shay's test didn't go well so I sent him an email letting him know that I was there for him. I spent a really long time writing it and as soon as I sent it, I had the feeling that he's never going to email me again.
Maybe it has to do with my weird dream this morning when I fell asleep in my (parked) car. I dream that Shay and I were in the parking lot with Homegirl and he grabbed me and kind of walked toward the cars. Then we sat down on a curb and suddenly Homegirl pulls him in for a snuggle and then they were kissing.
?!
Then I woke up.
Madaroni 10:43 PM
Sunday, February 24, 2002
Do I need this site anymore? Have I given up the pursuit?
Madaroni 11:02 AM
Friday, February 22, 2002
My life would be so much better if I had an actual person to share my stories with instead of this blog.
Madaroni 7:31 PM
I asked him about his day,
but then he was gone.
Walked out of the room
but then he was gone.
Came back in a few
but then he was gone
I would've gone on
but then he was gone.
Madaroni 11:41 AM
Wednesday, February 20, 2002
Sent off a pointless email to Shay last night.
Shouldn't he have responded by now?
Madaroni 8:02 AM
Tuesday, February 19, 2002
Wishing you were here
When you were there
Wishing you were here
You're everywhere
I looked away and saw that
You are not as tall as
I thought you were
Buddy we can't go back to that right now.
I want you here
so I know that you are near
I know that you are only
somebody who is lonely
I want you to come on back
I want you to come on back
So that we can get on the right track
Get on the right track.
Madaroni 8:43 PM
ooh Shay left his water bottle here. Should I call him and tell him that I have it?
That would let me know if he was at home stressing over school work, or getting it on with Homegirl. Man, nobody can ever see this page, haha.
Madaroni 8:40 PM
From low to high to low. Homegirl came through with the tickets, then she offered Shay a ride home and he took it. Why didn't I think of that? Yeah love, bring it on.
Madaroni 5:13 PM
Wow, wonder of all wonders... Homegirl came through for me after all.
I'm impressed. Maybe I shouldn't have given up on Shay so definitively.
Madaroni 2:39 PM
See I saw Shay yesterday and I was just fine. I was busy studying for my midterm that is today. In fact it was kinda funny, because another girl was all obsessed with his whereabouts everytime he left the room and that girl wasn't me!
Madaroni 8:10 AM
Monday, February 18, 2002
Hey I think I'm over Shay.
Seriously, I've been thinking about it all weekend and I honestly think that i am ok with him being with Homegirl. This is all because I am rationalizing my fat assumption of their unknown whereabouts on Saturday morning.
I'm totally ok. I can say with no regrets that I don't even like Shay like that anymore. Just friends, barely.
Madaroni 12:03 AM
Sunday, February 17, 2002
No word yet from Homegirl.
Madaroni 1:03 PM
Saturday, February 16, 2002
I don't think Homegirl bought tickets for DMB like she said she would.
I called her this morning and she wasn't home. At 10am on a Saturday. So I've been mulling this over all day.
I have a sinking feeling this had something to do with Shay.
I feel sucky.
*Munches a cookie*
Madaroni 5:19 PM
Friday, February 15, 2002
Guess who's here now...
Well as fun as this is... typing about him when he's sitting three feet away. I'd rather not chance him reading this.
Madaroni 11:26 AM
Hmm... Shay Vida was wearing a different jacket today. I asked Shay if he wasn't wearing his usual jacket because maybe he was doing laundry. He said no that's not why, but he rather likes the smell of his old one.
Oooh, just lost points with me on that one...
Madaroni 10:01 AM
Thursday, February 14, 2002
The coolest song. Ever.
Madaroni 6:29 PM
I'll not drive home this Valentine night
where I'll quickly go insane
for I still have your image etched
right onto my brain.
First get out of my head, go away
I don't want you anymore
To bother me with your happy thoughts
Just leave, go out the door
To you I wrote but you never wrote back
Yeah, made me feel real good.
You know that you're not doing things
the way I think you should.
Let me stop right here and look around
and take the time to see
The small crowd pining here is
not me and you, it's just me.
Madaroni 5:50 PM
This blog is all about Shay Maestro Vida, my current object of "Je ne se quois"...
Ok, now I am weirded out. I've had my eye on Shay for some time now and he was just sitting in the comp lab with me. He left a few minutes ago, but there was this weird tension to the point where I didn't even want to look over at him. I'm not mad at him, just upset that I don't know how to get through on a basic level to let him know that I like him and want to know how he feels about me. I have a feeling he may already know, and just doesn't know what to say to me because he might not feel the same way. Either that or I am so subtle about it he hasn't a clue at all. I just want to go out with him even for only a couple of times. But this is whole process is taking way too long.
Screw it. Who needs him?
Madaroni 5:24 PM
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